This morning, on the way to work, I realized that I was pretty sure that I had not taken my medicine this morning. It would have been better if I had not had that thought, regardless of whether or not the medicine had been taken.
My coffee had mostly been consumed, in a much smaller quantity than the days before, but I thought I was good to go, and I was counting on my afternoon tea. Yes, I’m addcited to caffeine. It’s so good.
Of course, what was most remarkable about today, was not that I did not even try, but that I immediately gave up when I thought that I had already failed. I’m sorry to make this observation of modern psychiatry, but a good portion of the anxiety of modern mental illness is centered around the taking of the meds. May God bless those of you not afflicted, but also to those of you who are, that you might heal. At least there are good days.
Having been consumed by worry today, this evening I stayed quiet. My husband visited his friends, and I attended to our home, cleaned the kitchen. Although my creativity has been solely devoted to this website, you can see a lot of this life has been snuffed out of me, but I do know this: that God is good, and that tomorrow I’ll try again. Ruminating days, empty sleep-filled nights. I know with all of my heart that it does get better, and that God above will see me through. He is so good!
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