And so today, I felt like crap, emotionally, again. This was both good and bad. It was bad because I felt awful and useless, but it was good because it had been so long since I had felt that way that it had become unfamiliar.
When I think I’ve overcome my bad-thinking ways, the fact that they can come back just makes me feel like all the good work that I’ve accomplished by not feeling terribly has been for naught.
Actually, now that I’m a grown-up, I will take this as being a lesson and a test. I do recognize that this was just for a moment, and that life improved with the living of it, as it always does.
It does make me realize that it is so easy to feel like a useless person, so I will do my best to make sure everybody feels special on my watch. With the world being as it is today, it is a blessing just to feel blessed, and a precious one at that. Not everyone gets to feel that way, so I do cherish all the souls that cross my path, and do intend to be appreciative at the work of my Maker, who made us all so unique.
Yes, I solemnly swear to leave the world of self-loathing, and will move forward to “paths of righteousness, for His Name’s sake.” I think I just borrowed from the 23rd Psalm, and if you don’t read those, perhaps you might enjoy these beautiful songs of love and hope.
In any case, it is past my bed time, and since I’m feeling okay, I better get to sleep and trust my dreams to do their healing work tonight. Hope that you all fared better today, and that tomorrow might be a blessing for you.
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