May I please just begin this post by declaring my unwavering love of my dog and my cat. This is my very first dog and my second cat. I want to have pets for the rest of my natural born life. These are our best friends, right?
As a child and growing-up person, it had always been clear to me that I would be a Mommy some day. Now I’m 45 with no human babies, but just animal pets. All I can think of now is getting sterilized because menopause is taking a miniute to get here. And this is all because of my #mentalhealth journey. I love my furbabies, but I’m scared of my own self, because I have a #schizoaffective disorder: depression, psychosis, and anxiety. I don’t think that was what the doctors treating me had intended, but the whole episode of my #twenties and #madness was enough for me to consider myself completely usesless as a procreating #human. I certainly don’t mean this in a bad way, and I feel as if my lack of childbearing is a boon for population control, and who knows what a #Psychmed pregnancy might have been like.
So for you all, #restoftheworld, you’re quite welcome. I did my part for the future. The actual terrible part of this woeful story is that all of my friends fom my twenties had babies, so I ran away from them and just tried to find a new path. I did find a great new path, and I’ve been married for close to fourteen years. Just no human babies. So I love my #furbabies. And I’m quite content with that. My #nextstep is to create #childrensliterature. Probably concerning my dog and cat, whose stories lend themselves to be chronicled for #posterity.
What I have learned from all of this is #love, #healing, #peace, and #harmony. Finally recognizing my own self worth, I can offer that to those I encounter on this #path to see in them as well. We are all so freaking blessed to be alive, and it is such a #miracle to even be a #human creature on this struggling planet that needs a big hug. So please, #reducereuserecycle, watch your #water, and figure out the #mentalhealth conundrum so young ladies won’t be losing their chance to make #babies because they might consider themselves to be #uncool because their #substanceabusing friends got tired of them.
I think that actually a lot of kids go to college and have a fine growing up time and do some great things. For these kids I #pray, and I trust that collectively we can figure out how to live harmoniously on God’s beautiful green Earth. Please save the #Future, friends! It’s a beautiful world.