Sweet Jesus, my sorry post from yesterday brought about the realization that I needed to heal! I let twenty-five years of misery go, and the process was quite the relief. To be honest, the editing I did of my little written expression began a release from the uncomfortable rumination. Now I can see that kind of stinkin’ thinkin’ for what it is.
Thank you, precious community, for even bothering to lend your support and care. You all really saw me through a breakthrough. I’m not exaggerating. And today was a great day, and I was a new human being with a heart and a brain that work.
While I might go back to sadness, I’m really going to try not to. As an older and wiser person, I can see that is not even necessary anymore. Granted my brain chemistry is closely tended by observant scientists, or so they say, but heckfire, I’m thankful those medicines are working as well as they are. I was so #depressed in the #past!
Today I feel as if I have been set free. This is more so about my personal relationship with Jesus than with the meds, as this is what heals my cranky heart. I have been washed by the Water and made clean, as not quite instamatically as it may have been imagined. Thoughts are just thoughts, and they do not own me any more. I can set them free, and set me free, too.
Dear friends, all so many of you (yeah) I do wish you the joy of salvation, and that “Peace that passes understanding.”
“And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7 KJV
The great thing about having ruined one’s mind through psychological turmoil for twenty-five plus years is that every blessed day, I can be remeinded about the Lord who makes everything new, and be so completely set free from chewing my own negative cud like a petulant grazing animal. Don’t get me wrong, I wish all of the grazing animals release from yucky cud, and wish them all the sweetest grasses.
Time to renew my mind further, and I will do so before I begin to dream tonight. I love my brain, my memories, my heart, and all of my friends, old and new, despite any hurt feelings. Please set us all free, Lord Jesus, and help us to #heal the #future.